Hi everyone, my name is Rain. I’m writing to get into a hobby of blogging and I’m a bored, introverted college student with nothing else to do in this pandemic. I dabbled into creative writing for about one week then I lost my journal with my stories and completely forgot about them. I could never be an author/someone who writes for a living, Its extremely stressful.
A little bit about me. I’m 18 about to be 19 in 2 months. I’m a criminology major with little hope about what I’ll be when I grow up in sight, but that’s okay. If all else fails, I guess the military is my light in a dark tunnel. I am the second oldest and have 6 siblings, 5 + me live with my mother and her husband and my older sister lives with her girlfriend. I’m Florida born, but was forced to Georgia and when my mom remarried forced into Alabama. It’s not the best life because I’m not used to a small town where everyone already knows each other, with no friends and everyone rarely goes out of that town. I go to college in Georgia and kind of sadly, I haven’t made any friends on campus (probably another reason why I’m doing this). I don’t pity myself because its my own fault that I don’t make friends. When it comes to meeting people, I cannot do it face to face. I guess I am dependent on technology, but when I meet people all I can think of is, “ What if they don’t like me? the way I look ? the way I speak? What if I’m boring to them?”
These thoughts has led me to being shy and secluded from the general public. It takes all of my energy to talk to people. My face gets hot, my speech gets shaky and tears tend to form in my eyes (though I don’t let them fall). I’m kinda of putting myself out there for the world to read, but I doubt mny will find this blog. I’m happy either way that I get to write my thoughts and not just have them jumbled up in my brain, dying because they cannot be let out.
