I have always been self conscious about myself. My skin refuses to get clear no matter how good I take care of it, my side profile is horrible because my cheeks are chubby, my face is pretty large and flat. I have avoided taking selfies many times because of these insecurities. Never would I ever take photos with my friends because I was the “ugly” friend and even if no one said it. I knew it. I missed out on capturing many memorable moments with my friend. I didn’t even take senior photos because I just didn’t want to be reminded of how insecure I am.

With that said, during 2020 summer, I would try to take pictures because I was on vacation. Some of them made me tear up because I was reminded of the times I didn’t Like taking selfies, but there were a lot that I loved. Summer was amazing. I loved every aspect of it. The Florida sun. The smell of the beach. The morning walks and the working out. During this time I started taking photos of myself . I absolutely loved it. even if they don’t come out to my liking, I don’t Cry about it, I don’t feel upset. I just try again. What really helped was I was 18, got out a bad life situation and I could finally be comfortable being myself. Instead of letting people talk down to me, I would defend myself and I wouldn’t Blindly follow what others told me to do. If someone were to talk about my looks in a negative aspect, I would ignore them. This was the start of a new chapter in my life. College. I have no time to worry about what others think about my looks because I need to figure out what and where I want to be In life.

I might not be the most attractive, but I’m finally learning to love myself even if it’ll take a while.

~No rainbow without Rain